Panic.

I'm in Malaysia. Going back and forth between absolute joy in my freedom and absolute panic in being alone and suspicious of everyone around me.

The next 5 days are going to be a great lesson in trust, I think.

Tomorrow I will have lunch with a Malaysian friend who lives here now and that should calm my heart.

I hope.


Now off to my pungent room shared with some fat girls from Indonesia.

What the hell am I doing here?



cheers. xoxo